Feeling tired...

It's 4.30 am now in Moscow and I'm still not asleep...
Why?
Because I need to finish my powerpoint presentation before class tomorrow.
sigh...
I'm feeling very sleepy now...

sob sob...
miss my bed

Chinese or Malaysian?

The most cliche questions people ask when they 1st meet me!

WHO ARE YOU?


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My dilemma....
Chinese? Malaysian?


I just hate it when people (especially Chinese people) say,
"oh well,I'm not Malaysian. I don't feel like I belong to country. I'm just Chinese, and that is it."
And I understand why -Because the people who rule my country are not secure enough to let go off their power, of their bigotry, of their herd mentality and their selfishness
and are afraid of any change to the status quo.

Remember the countless, numerous forms that we've filled in ever since primary school. The race boxes where you mark "Melayu", "Cina", "India" or "lain-lain".

Why do we feel the need to categorise ourselves by race? Why do we say "I'm Indian" or "I'm Chinese", when really....all that matters is that we are Malaysians.

I mean seriously you don't go out and call an african of French descent a french African. You just call them French.You don't address some people as an Italian American. You just call them Americans... right!

I am not saying that I should forget the fact that I am a chinese.In fact I am a chinese.And I am proud of it.And of course it does not mean that as the
4th generation emigrant of me,I have no rights to identify myself with the country that my ancestors originated from. Just because my great great grandparents moved to a faraway land, risking their lives in order to seek a better life; means I should divorced my roots entirely?


And it matters so much to me that I'm both a Malaysian and Chinese.Simple because
being both is not a crime.
The crime is only when we let ethnicity separating us instead of having nationality uniting us.

Russian Visa

Today marks the 5th day of my foot print on the land of Russia.But these 5 days doesn't pass by easily. The Russian government suddenly decides that everybody who steps into their country should must have their visas done within 3 working days regardless of even if your present visa expire two or three months later.

Failure to do so will cause one to pay a fine of 1000 roubles (about RM 140) for a day late.And so... now all foreigners studying in MMA rushes to queue in the "dekanat" (dean's office) in order to get their visas done.Did I mention queue? Opps... Does this look like a queue to you ?


We started queueing since 8.30 am yesterday although the office would only be open at 2 pm.And thank God we're able to settle our visas. This scenario has been an every year thing for us in MMA.
Sigh...How I wish things will be different next year.



A must when queueing up - MP3 and Food.

Words of Wisdom:

Never drink water there cause you don't want to end up going to the loo often.

The end of my holiday..

4 more days before flying back to Moscow... My current mood is somewhat a mixture of excited+ happy+emo+emo+emo+emo +emo and emo!!!

There's so much to be done and little time left....


p/s : Blog's still in a mess ... will try to beautify it whenever I have time!!

Meet my siblings...

The world is not small but for me to be born in this family is God's blessing and for me to have a compassionate and lovey dovey family members is a bonus. I love you guys lots!

Me (the eldest No.1) - with extra hands

No.2 - finally graduated. She is officially off from the F&M( Father & Mother) Scholarship.


N0.3 - The football freak in the family.
We always call her "the bulimic girl" cause she always feel like vomitting after eating.

No4. - The pet student of every teacher in school and even now in college simply because she loves to smile.She smiles every minute and second to everybody (I mean everybody)

No.5 ( the youngest) - aspires to have his own blog and threathened me to name it clicheboy if I don't listen to him...

Me & bro

My bro pretending to be a vampire slayer!.

Us (without my 2nd sis) cam whoring in front of a workshop because our car caught fire in the middle of the road. (And it scares all the neighbouring cars)

A new look

Finally I've found the Blogger Template that I want after 6 months.I'm still cracking my head on how html works. I'm still unable to put up my widgets yet but I will try to reconstruct the new face of my blog ASAP.... I'm really excited now... hooray!!!

Happy Birthday Adeline!

Happy Birthday to Miss Adeline LMN...^_^
Have been trying for the past 1 hour to send Birthday wishes to you through Facebook but I guess internet connection today is super duper slow...
I wish you all the best in your undertakings and I thank God for this wonderful friend,classmate, housemate, ping pong mate and sister in Christ. God bless!!


P/S : For those who comes across this entry, do stop for a while to pray for this wonderful friend of mine. ^_^
God bless!!

Dearest Uncle...

It's been 2 years since the passing of my beloved uncle.
This day is the day when my uncle left the physical world, to a better place, a whole 2 years ago. .

Being my favourite uncle, the fact that i'd lost him is still painfully devastating. Perhaps what makes it more unbearable is the fact that I had a conversation with him 4 hours before he lost his consciousness and then passed away and yet I was not there when he passed away.


It's heart-wrenching to think that I did not show my gratitude to him more often.I thought I could leave all the mushy stuff till the end, when I'm at deathbed, telling him that he had made my life safer, more exciting, comforting and meaningful. It hurts to think that he went on without knowing that I actually do care about him more than he would thought I would be.


So people, do cherish what you have, and let your loved ones know, that you care for them. Do that, before it's too late or you'll be haunted by the ghosts of your own ignorance and inaction, for years to come as how this has haunted me periodically.

I'm sorry, Uncle.I loved, love, and will continue loving you, and may your souls rest in peace.

Remember this cute little girl who sang "Ode to the Motherland" at the opening ceremony for the Beijing Games 2008.

Well, it wasn't her voice that we heard.She was just lip sync-ing the words which had been recorded by this 7 year old girl on the left .

The reason the 7 year old girl was replaced was that her face was deemed "not suitable" for the opening ceremony.Hello? Not suitable?

I was even appalled when I heard this guy Chen Qigang,the general music designer of the opening ceremonies, said that “The child on camera should be flawless in image, internal feeling and expression.”

How could you tell a child - Oh I am sorry you have a wonderful voice and we want to use it but you're too ugly to be seen? How heartless could one be. Remember my entry on why pretty .

Well, in another few years time,this 7 year old girl will grow up and be convinced that she is ugly and unworthy of any affection. Remember the girl who lip-synced? What a great impact it would be on her life.She will be marked as "the imposter" for the rest of her life.Even so,the media world has named her as the world class fakes.

The annoying thing.

"My current mood"

Some people exist to make others miserable.