Clichegal's this 2010's September & October wishes & resolutions

Just my thoughts...

I'm feeling so blessed and contented now that I'm wondering when it will stop.

For the past 6 years, I've been involved a lot in church activities, seeking God, serving and stuff like...sharing, leading a cell group and most importantly learning how to worship Him.From a person who has never felt God's presence to feeling His presence and learned how to release completely to Him. I don't know where my spirit is, but wherever it is, I believe that it is growing stronger in Him. And I hope that as I spend more time in His presence and desire Him more and more, my spirit will be more attuned with His and less with the world.

Now that I've graduated and I'm waiting for the letter from KKM calling me to go for induction before I start work, I start to have this fear in me.

And I need to keep telling myself, no, no. There is a path that we must walk by faith and not by sight.I dont know where I will be sent to.But I believe that no matter where I go, God is there with me.It's just that I fear for the "what if" I didnt do well,I gave up, I start to doubt God and stuff like that.
I tend to allow the human me to play with my thoughts.For me,to walk by faith is an understanding and a belief that cannot be explained or dissected, only FELT. Like the stirring of a breeze, a whisper in the wind - only occasionally we catch a glimpse of eternity, and fall silent at the majesty that is above all we could imagine.

But we know that beyond the veil, beyond this life, there it is. Glory and holiness that will captivate us for eternity.I know that I really need to learn to just wait, and pray, and believe.

And thus,
there it is, there it is.

^_^

Merdeka spirit - what went wrong?

Merdeka!Merdeka!Merdeka! ...It has been like 6 years that I have not been celebrating Merdeka. The simple reason is that I was not in Malaysia for that period.

My memories of Merdeka? Lots of it... I remember that I used to practice so hard with my clarinet and marching from 5pm till 7pm every Tuesday, Wednesday and Saturday from the beginning of August.In the morning of the National day, we woke up as early as 5am and prepared ourselves before we left for the Padang Besar Ipoh and then when time comes, we would march proudly and played our beautiful "Perajurit Song" with much enthusiasm for 8 to 9km... At that moment, I could really felt the Merdeka spirit and embraced it especially when I passed by the Sultan (hahaha)

What happen after 6 years? Have I changed or Malaysia have changed?

Today is the 28th of August ... Back then , I would have seen Malaysian flags everywhere. (shophouses, houses and vehicles ) Now,I can only see a few pathetic flags despite Merdeka is just 3 days away.

Even I have not gone into the Merdeka celebratory mood despite being in Malaysia.

I really love my country, MALAYSIA. Yes, I do and always will.

I don't want to be the ones that are complaining about our government and various stuff and end with the statement " thus,I couldn't find the Merdeka Spirit" .I believe in initiative. ^_^ Thus , from today onwards I will play Merdeka songs in the room, hang Malaysian flags, make my own flag (^_^) , watch merdeka advertisement and shows, watch the morning parade and fireworks to get the Merdeka spirit back . Merdeka! Merdeka! Merdeka!

Restaurant city

Currently I'm unemployed till after Raya. What am I doing every single day? Restaurant city ! Ya, I've been strategizing and planning of how to make my restaurant the prettiest restaurant in town.

I know I'm talkng nonsense for now... ahahahha
I promise for a well written post... ^_^

Restaurant city

Currently I'm unemployed till after Raya. What am I doing every single day? Restaurant city ! Ya, I've been strategizing and planning of how to make my restaurant the prettiest restaurant in town.

I know I'm talkng nonsense for now... ahahahha
I promise for a well written post... ^_^

Graduated!!

I'm back to blogging after one year.hahaha.. I don't know if I'll stop later on when I start work... but currently I'm pretty free.I'm back in Sitiawan.I've sent in all the necessary documents to SPA,KKM and MMC and now I just have to wait for the induction letter to come. But I guess it will only come after Raya! woo hoo... more time to spend with my beloved family.

A genuine happiness

Happiness

I'm amazed sometimes at my ability to feel happy for others... non of that that's-great-for-you-wish-things-were-the-same-for-me-too, but a pure, genuine kind of joy when I hear good things happening to others.. so totally makes my day~!

People getting married...

People getting together...

People planning surprises for others...

*happy sigh~*

But these 3 days really taught me what genuine happiness is all about. I nearly lost my Dad last Tuesday. When my sister broke the news that my dad was hospitalised due to a strong stabbing pain in his chest and his condition was not stable, tears just flow down my cheek unknowingly. The most painful part was when I called back I had to pretend that I didn't know anything (my parents told my sister not to tell me), and be casual.

While chatting with him on the phone, his voice was really weak. Unknowingly tears just flow through my cheek.I had to pause and breathe real hard before continuing talking with him.That moment was really a very very painful moment to go through. I spent the last 2 days worrying about my dad.I could wake up in the middle at night and cried non stop for 2 to 3 hours because the fear of losing my dad was just very strong. I did nothing but worrying and complaining why. I stopped praying. I stopped believing in Him. I shut myself from reality.

Even when my friends prayed for my dad,I wasn't praying because when my uncle was on his death bed, I was kneeling and praying to God to save him, and He didn't. Thus, this time I didn't want to pray. Because I felt it was just going to be same as before.

But God is really gracious and good to me. He never forgets about me. He send people around me to comfort me. And I'm really thankful for them. I am thankful that they knew about what had happenned and yet never really asked alot.Coz at that moment I just wanted to be left alone.I am thankful that I have very considerate friends.I am. And of course, I am thankful that my dad was discharged yesterday. His condition is stable now but from now on he really needs to becareful coz recurrence rate is really high.

In just these 3 short days, I have experienced both sadness and joy on the extreme. The thing was I wallowed myself into self-pitiness. I made myself a victim. I created an excuse for myself to do nothing. But God pulled me through this painful journey. I was in the lowest pit of my life till He came to pull me out of it.He comforted me with His angels, His people, His prayer team and His songs.And all these are true genuine happiness that I've felt. Deep from inside. Thank You , My Father.

Below were the the song that really speak to me during this period.

Because Of You - City Harvest Church

My task before Graduation..

Next year , June will be the month which marks the next chapter of my life.(hehe... I will be graduating ^_^)But before the state exam, I need to equip myself with as much knowledge as possible... hehe.. There will be 8 more months before my state exam... Thus I need to finish studying the following topics below before my state exam.. hehe

1) Internal Medicine
2) Surgery
3) Obstetrics
4) Gynaecology
5) Clinical Practicals
6) Pediatrics
7) Anatomy
8) Infectious Disease
9) Oncology
10) Orthopedics and traumatology
11) Urology
12) ENT
13) Neurology
14) Endocrinolgy
15) Opthalmology
16) Pharmacology
17) Psychiatry
18) Reanimation
19) Pathophysiology
20) Mental Prep...
21) Cases
22) State Examination
23) GRADUATION


P/s : Oh Lord , please give me the strength and will and determination to complete this task... Thank You Lord. Amen!!!

Female circumcision & fracture of the penis sequels?- maybe not..

It seems that lately many are interested in a few that I've posted up last year ... For instance on the topic Female Circumcision- Barbaric act and Fracture of the penis ...Yesterday , when I was checking where most of my readers are from, I came to this forum . And then I saw my blog link...

Anonymous said...

As a doctor I have an objection to both male and female circumcision. Male circumcision is for the sake of tradition and religion, not medical. When you weigh the risk to benefit, it does not pan out. Doctors are unwilling to do other needless procedures but when it comes to circumcision most of my collegues seem blinded.

http://clichegal.blogspot.com/2008/03/female-circumcision-barbaric-act.html (Warning content is rather distrubing and graphic)

See the word highlighted in red?? My content is deemed disturbing.. ??? Someone, please Enlighten me.

My life updates

Oh well... I am back in Malaysia now for my summer holiday ... There are many things to be done and yet so little time .Okay just an update of what I have done :

1) Paid my tuition fees
2) Watched Transformers ( It was great but confusing.. they all looked the same to me )
3) Went to Ipoh ( Thanks Dad for being so nice to fetch me all the way there)
4) Ate my mommy's famous ba zhang!
5) Made my name tag
6) Took pictures of my grandma & grandpa's cemetary and printed it out.


Now things that I need to do & my schedule :

1) Going to Miri on the 5th July 2009
2) Report to work on Monday.
3) Buy books in KL
4) Treat my sister(S) for lunch.
5) Prepare sermons to be presented during the mission.
6) Going for missions in Indonesia from the 1 August till 11 August 2009
7) Study a lot so that I would not end up in embarrassment upon being questioned by the doctors or friends during the mission trip.
8) Listen to the CD that Gan gave.
9) To pay a respect to my uncle !!
10) I think that's all.


Okay, now aims that I am hoping to achieve :

1) More that 10 people would be saved during the missions.
2) To go for the Doctors Conference.
3) To grow stronger in faith and love for God!
4) To increase in my knowledge!!!haha
5) To create a close and strong relationships with friends that I am going with to Indonesia.



Today , I went to Giant with mommy. And the cashier was really slow and the queue was super long. I got so frustrated. And then when it was my turn,the cashier made a mistake with a customer before me and had to call his supervisor to come over. I dont know why but I got frustrated and blurted "wah lao" and put a big sigh over him. And my mom got surprised. She asked what happened to me and where did I learn all these bad manners and that it was really rude. And when I think about it, I was never like this back then. I didnt know why I became like this. I felt so bad.I guessed living in Moscow for a long time made me impatient. I don't want this scenario to happen again to me again in near future!

Oh Lord, I just pray to you to guide me through and let the impatience in me to go away from me.Thank you Lord .. AMen!!