Merdeka spirit - what went wrong?

Merdeka!Merdeka!Merdeka! ...It has been like 6 years that I have not been celebrating Merdeka. The simple reason is that I was not in Malaysia for that period.

My memories of Merdeka? Lots of it... I remember that I used to practice so hard with my clarinet and marching from 5pm till 7pm every Tuesday, Wednesday and Saturday from the beginning of August.In the morning of the National day, we woke up as early as 5am and prepared ourselves before we left for the Padang Besar Ipoh and then when time comes, we would march proudly and played our beautiful "Perajurit Song" with much enthusiasm for 8 to 9km... At that moment, I could really felt the Merdeka spirit and embraced it especially when I passed by the Sultan (hahaha)

What happen after 6 years? Have I changed or Malaysia have changed?

Today is the 28th of August ... Back then , I would have seen Malaysian flags everywhere. (shophouses, houses and vehicles ) Now,I can only see a few pathetic flags despite Merdeka is just 3 days away.

Even I have not gone into the Merdeka celebratory mood despite being in Malaysia.

I really love my country, MALAYSIA. Yes, I do and always will.

I don't want to be the ones that are complaining about our government and various stuff and end with the statement " thus,I couldn't find the Merdeka Spirit" .I believe in initiative. ^_^ Thus , from today onwards I will play Merdeka songs in the room, hang Malaysian flags, make my own flag (^_^) , watch merdeka advertisement and shows, watch the morning parade and fireworks to get the Merdeka spirit back . Merdeka! Merdeka! Merdeka!

Restaurant city

Currently I'm unemployed till after Raya. What am I doing every single day? Restaurant city ! Ya, I've been strategizing and planning of how to make my restaurant the prettiest restaurant in town.

I know I'm talkng nonsense for now... ahahahha
I promise for a well written post... ^_^

Restaurant city

Currently I'm unemployed till after Raya. What am I doing every single day? Restaurant city ! Ya, I've been strategizing and planning of how to make my restaurant the prettiest restaurant in town.

I know I'm talkng nonsense for now... ahahahha
I promise for a well written post... ^_^

Graduated!!

I'm back to blogging after one year.hahaha.. I don't know if I'll stop later on when I start work... but currently I'm pretty free.I'm back in Sitiawan.I've sent in all the necessary documents to SPA,KKM and MMC and now I just have to wait for the induction letter to come. But I guess it will only come after Raya! woo hoo... more time to spend with my beloved family.

A genuine happiness

Happiness

I'm amazed sometimes at my ability to feel happy for others... non of that that's-great-for-you-wish-things-were-the-same-for-me-too, but a pure, genuine kind of joy when I hear good things happening to others.. so totally makes my day~!

People getting married...

People getting together...

People planning surprises for others...

*happy sigh~*

But these 3 days really taught me what genuine happiness is all about. I nearly lost my Dad last Tuesday. When my sister broke the news that my dad was hospitalised due to a strong stabbing pain in his chest and his condition was not stable, tears just flow down my cheek unknowingly. The most painful part was when I called back I had to pretend that I didn't know anything (my parents told my sister not to tell me), and be casual.

While chatting with him on the phone, his voice was really weak. Unknowingly tears just flow through my cheek.I had to pause and breathe real hard before continuing talking with him.That moment was really a very very painful moment to go through. I spent the last 2 days worrying about my dad.I could wake up in the middle at night and cried non stop for 2 to 3 hours because the fear of losing my dad was just very strong. I did nothing but worrying and complaining why. I stopped praying. I stopped believing in Him. I shut myself from reality.

Even when my friends prayed for my dad,I wasn't praying because when my uncle was on his death bed, I was kneeling and praying to God to save him, and He didn't. Thus, this time I didn't want to pray. Because I felt it was just going to be same as before.

But God is really gracious and good to me. He never forgets about me. He send people around me to comfort me. And I'm really thankful for them. I am thankful that they knew about what had happenned and yet never really asked alot.Coz at that moment I just wanted to be left alone.I am thankful that I have very considerate friends.I am. And of course, I am thankful that my dad was discharged yesterday. His condition is stable now but from now on he really needs to becareful coz recurrence rate is really high.

In just these 3 short days, I have experienced both sadness and joy on the extreme. The thing was I wallowed myself into self-pitiness. I made myself a victim. I created an excuse for myself to do nothing. But God pulled me through this painful journey. I was in the lowest pit of my life till He came to pull me out of it.He comforted me with His angels, His people, His prayer team and His songs.And all these are true genuine happiness that I've felt. Deep from inside. Thank You , My Father.

Below were the the song that really speak to me during this period.

Because Of You - City Harvest Church

My task before Graduation..

Next year , June will be the month which marks the next chapter of my life.(hehe... I will be graduating ^_^)But before the state exam, I need to equip myself with as much knowledge as possible... hehe.. There will be 8 more months before my state exam... Thus I need to finish studying the following topics below before my state exam.. hehe

1) Internal Medicine
2) Surgery
3) Obstetrics
4) Gynaecology
5) Clinical Practicals
6) Pediatrics
7) Anatomy
8) Infectious Disease
9) Oncology
10) Orthopedics and traumatology
11) Urology
12) ENT
13) Neurology
14) Endocrinolgy
15) Opthalmology
16) Pharmacology
17) Psychiatry
18) Reanimation
19) Pathophysiology
20) Mental Prep...
21) Cases
22) State Examination
23) GRADUATION


P/s : Oh Lord , please give me the strength and will and determination to complete this task... Thank You Lord. Amen!!!

Happy Mother's Day

This is my family. But today I'm only going to talk about one person.

Guess who?

This is my beloved mother!!

She has a pair of extremely small eyes!

 So am I.

My mom likes to pretend to be cute.

So am I.

And I guess that's why I am her daughter. ^_^

(yup. that's her hand)

My mom is an animal lover.

We have birds, chicken, rabbit, hamsters and dog.

All living under one roof.

My mom loves to put our chicken and dog together so that they can be good friends.

But her mission fails every time.

However, one day she managed to make our dog smoke!!

I'm proud of you ma!!

 Mom and I are good friends. 

We are very busybody. In another word  "ke poh".

We share our secrets and of course gossips too.

I love my mommy a lot because she is special to me.

And I am pretty sure that she loves me A LOTTTTT  too.

Remember to make " ba zhang" for me when I come back okay.

P/S:  My mom makes the best "ba zhang" in the world!

Okayla, maybe not in the world, but at least in MY WORLD. 

Happy Mother's Day!!

P/S no2: Don't be jealous ya daddy..I write a better one for you next time. ^_^

Who says backpacking in big groups is a big No- No

So I have been NOT updating..^_^

I am back from the whirlwind trip through Switzerland,Budapest ,Prague and Vienna. Had a lovely time though thoroughly tired.Anyhow, this trip has given me lots to ponder upon as well as lots of pictures to sift through, receipts to sort, gifts to organise, and tons and tons of memories. What a great fun and laughter!






I used to be sceptical when it comes to travelling in big groups (there was 12 of us)as most people around me would give us that sceptical look with their minds thinking "oh my,this is just going to be a disaster.So many people,So many differences, so many opinions ... etc etc etc.



But this trip has certainly been an eye opener for me.For me,it was truly great touring those places with people so familiar to me, especially in manner. Lame jokes galore, Malaysian accents and Manglish, with comments both flattering and unflattering in front of subject of mention in Malay and Mandarin, and lotsa posing for pictures( about 18 Gb inclusive of videos hehe) .Everybody is just so comfortable with each other.At least I think the rest thinks the same way too.. ^_^















Company's great, food's good, places scenic - who could ask for more? Thus I want to thank God for His blessing upon us throughout the whole journey!!




P/S : When I've filtered and compiled all of them,I assure you guys more musings and pictures (definitely!) hehe

Christmas Dinner 2008

I know it's a little wee bit late for me to post these photos especially when it's 2009 now.. But in Russia , russians celebrate Christmas on the 7th January.So I guess this post comes right in time!Without futher a do,I'll let the pictures speak for itself.

Okay,that's a wrap.And I would like to wish everyone "A Merry Merry Christmas and a Prosperous Blessed New Year!"

God bless you and your family always.


P/S : Remember the spirit of the season?
Remember what Jesus said when he said" It is more blessed to give..." ^_^