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Dont kill me for this..
hahaha
Put The Big Red Button on your site
For the time being this is my stress therapy....Even when it goes blank keep clicking till a small red dot appears ... keep clicking and you'll know what I mean.
Thanks To H2M
Russia has a remarkable education system... They do not inform you about the exam date till one week before...Well what can I do? My future sleepless night schedules are:
19 May ......... ENT FINAL
20 May ......... Topograhical Anatomy ( Practical Exam & Test on Lower extremities )
23 May ......... Topograhical Anatomy Final ( Just 2 days to study?? Im really struggling with this subject and yet just 2 days to study everything plus 800 mcq)
26 May ......... Obstetric
30 May ......... Therapy
4 June ........... Surgery
AND A VERY BIG GAP..( I really dunno what's going on in their mind)
19 June ........... Neurology
(correction : 18 June)
The best thing is my flight ticket is on 18 June.. sigh ...Need to book again... Apparently all the dates to fly back that are not availabe now.. I dont want to go back in July.. Sob sob......
I don't know how to put it down, I didn't know how to express it, I knew some people would listen
to me but I knew I had other better things to do than to rant.
I felt very 'unhappening'. I don't really have that va-va-voom in life yet.
Somehow I feel pretty unfulfilled.
I don't blame anyone but myself.
If I were to die tomorrow, I am not afraid of it. But I wouldn't want to die yet because I have left so many things uncomplete.
Man, so many 'I's.
You know when I go to university I feel like a nun... I mean, I don't smoke, don't say the f-word, don't drink, don't go clubbing etc etc. But then when I go to church I feel like I'm not a good enough Christian. (I know there is no such thing as being a good enough Christian, but I just feel that way, ok!)
People say to me, 'Man, loosen up!' Yet I feel I am very unworthy of God's grace.
And... time management problems. These past weeks I have been procrastinating alot.
hours
a day does not seem to be enough because of my procrastination.
I don't know what has come over me.
I feel my life's spiralling out of control.
I hope I can even revise my work in time.
But then again I feel incredibly disciplined at times
especially in this time of my topography anatomy cycle.
I hate skipping church,prayer meeting and fellowhip and urban life,
but I really need to study.
But if I was really desperate I CAN make it for these meetings.
I have lost that desperation for God in a way.
I mean I still love Him and all,
but I think I am sizzling out in passion.
But I know I shouldn't rely on passion
but on a love that never fizzes out.
Somehow nowadays I feel it's so difficult to be friendly. All I want to do is to stick to the small group of friends
I am comfortable with. I find it challenging to move out of my comfort zone and try to make conversation with other people. I fear irritating them. I really want people to feel accepted but yet I lack the courage to go all out to do so plus I felt myself being a hypocrite.
I also feel I am a very boring person.
(despite protests from some that I'm not).
Let me put it this way- I am boring to people I can't really click with. Somehow I've lost that spark of humour I once had. Believe it or not, I was actually outgoing once upon a time.Haha...
Now all I wanna do is hide inside my shell.
To my fellow blogger friends,
A friend of mine has fallen sick.And my heart feels heavy knowing that he is still in the hospital now.There's nothing much that I can do but to pray.And I believe in the power of prayer. Please join me in prayer as you read this :
Dear Lord,
You know my friend so much better than I do. You know his sickness and the burden he carries. You also know his heart. Lord, I ask you to be with my friend now, working in his life. Let your will be done in my friend's life. If there is a sin that needs to be confessed and forgiven, Lord, please help him to see his need and confess.
Lord, I pray for my friend because your Word says I should pray for his healing. I believe you hear this earnest prayer from my heart and that it is powerful because of your promise. I have faith in you to heal my friend, but I also trust in the plan you have for his life. Lord, I don't always understand your ways, and why my friend has to suffer, but I trust YOU. I ask that you look with mercy and grace toward my friend. Nourish his spirit and soul in this time of suffering and comfort him with your presence. Let my friend know you are there with him through this time of difficulties. And may you be glorified in his life and also in mine.
In the name of Jesus Christ.
Amen.
At this moment, this is just how I feel. I just need time to calm down. Leave me alone for tonight and everything will be okay tomorrow because I always believe that tomorrow will always be a better day.