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Dont kill me for this..
hahaha







Put The Big Red Button on your site
For the time being this is my stress therapy....Even when it goes blank keep clicking till a small red dot appears ... keep clicking and you'll know what I mean.
Thanks To H2M
Russia has a remarkable education system... They do not inform you about the exam date till one week before...Well what can I do? My future sleepless night schedules are:
19 May ......... ENT FINAL
20 May ......... Topograhical Anatomy ( Practical Exam & Test on Lower extremities )
23 May ......... Topograhical Anatomy Final ( Just 2 days to study?? Im really struggling with this subject and yet just 2 days to study everything plus 800 mcq)
26 May ......... Obstetric
30 May ......... Therapy
4 June ........... Surgery
AND A VERY BIG GAP..( I really dunno what's going on in their mind)
19 June ........... Neurology
(correction : 18 June)
The best thing is my flight ticket is on 18 June.. sigh ...Need to book again... Apparently all the dates to fly back that are not availabe now.. I dont want to go back in July.. Sob sob......



or Donald Trump?






I don't know how to put it down, I didn't know how to express it, I knew some people would listen
to me but I knew I had other better things to do than to rant.
I felt very 'unhappening'. I don't really have that va-va-voom in life yet.
Somehow I feel pretty unfulfilled.
I don't blame anyone but myself.
If I were to die tomorrow, I am not afraid of it. But I wouldn't want to die yet because I have left so many things uncomplete.
Man, so many 'I's.
You know when I go to university I feel like a nun... I mean, I don't smoke, don't say the f-word, don't drink, don't go clubbing etc etc. But then when I go to church I feel like I'm not a good enough Christian. (I know there is no such thing as being a good enough Christian, but I just feel that way, ok!)
People say to me, 'Man, loosen up!' Yet I feel I am very unworthy of God's grace.
And... time management problems. These past weeks I have been procrastinating alot.
hours
a day does not seem to be enough because of my procrastination.
I don't know what has come over me.
I feel my life's spiralling out of control.
I hope I can even revise my work in time.
But then again I feel incredibly disciplined at times
especially in this time of my topography anatomy cycle.
I hate skipping church,prayer meeting and fellowhip and urban life,
but I really need to study.
But if I was really desperate I CAN make it for these meetings.
I have lost that desperation for God in a way.
I mean I still love Him and all,
but I think I am sizzling out in passion.
But I know I shouldn't rely on passion
but on a love that never fizzes out.
Somehow nowadays I feel it's so difficult to be friendly. All I want to do is to stick to the small group of friends
I am comfortable with. I find it challenging to move out of my comfort zone and try to make conversation with other people. I fear irritating them. I really want people to feel accepted but yet I lack the courage to go all out to do so plus I felt myself being a hypocrite.
I also feel I am a very boring person.
(despite protests from some that I'm not). 
Let me put it this way- I am boring to people I can't really click with. Somehow I've lost that spark of humour I once had. Believe it or not, I was actually outgoing once upon a time.Haha...
Now all I wanna do is hide inside my shell.